Chelsea and I didn't work out.
No surprise there...
Not exactly sure what I was thinking by pursuing any kind of relationship now in the first place.

Saturday was a bad day. All around. Wanted the day off... didn't get it at the last second. Got to work the entire 8 hour shift by myself... on the busiest day of the year... no break.

Now... I send an email to the manager of the kiosks to confirm that I do in fact have next Saturday off so I can attend the yearly Christmas thing with my group of friends... and she says 'If your shift is covered then you will be able to have it off. Check the schedule please and get back to me.' Checked the schedule... everyone is fucking working. Except the bitter old dude that already works ever day of the god damn week. I can't switch somebody shifts... because its an all day thing and I don't want to miss it... especially after getting fucked last Saturday. I already had to barter with the manager just so I could have the time off to be with my family and friends before Christmas. Granted, I have to work on Katy's birthday, New Year's Eve, and New Year's Days... but that's perfectly fine...

What gets me is the fact that she said I would have it off... before she even made the holiday schedule. Now its out, she has me on it from 4 to 11... the other person working leaves at 6. So once again... I'll be by myself for a lengthy stretch of time... on the Saturday before Christmas... does anyone get the sense that I am getting screwed over? Cause I definitely do...

Having this second job is a pain in the ass. Actually... its more in my right leg that any where else... but you get the idea.
If it didn't help pay the bills (even though the paychecks show up three days after what is supposed to be payday) at 9 bucks an hour or have the potential to get me into the actual MainGate company, it'd be so gone. I wish I could work more hours at the school... make my second job working in the Tech Cage... that would be fantastic. But alas, they only allow students to work a max of 20 hours because of some EDMC ruling... being able to support X number of students... BUT HEY! Why don't you operate with V number of students, where V is less that X and you let those students work more hours!? Seems logical. I bet I could do a better job than some of the people in the Cage put together. Don't believe me? Give me the chance and I'll prove it.

Fuck life.

I'm closing my account with National City. Some how I managed to overdraw my account... again. Had to pay off all that shit... so my cash was immediately zapped for the remainder of the week. Coupled with that second pay check that takes forever to arrive... money is tight. I find it quite odd that banks will charge to full price for overdrawing your account by nine fucking cents. And allow the account to be able to be used without notifying the person in any way faster than a mailed notice you get five days after you find out the account is over drawn... really though. Mail notices? In today's social networked society. Silly National City. No wonder I dislike you. Get with the times Not to mention... I talked to the branch manager to clear up the pattern of transactions (because they were not in any kind of logical order, even if they came through a few days later they wouldn't have ended up the way they did.)... and he was a total prick. Of course, not to the elderly guy before me. Nor the elderly lady after me. Didn't take the offer to shake my hand. Hardly even looked at me... but he did add a nice layer of mockery in his voice when talking about the transactions. 'So... you've NEVER been to Dairy Queen?' well... yeah... I have. Once or twice in my life. But not in the span of a week that that transaction went through... and not for that amount. Asshole. Stupid banks. I hate them. Always have. I don't know exactly what my aggression is towards them... I just have it. Maybe it's because every bank I had an account with has managed to have one bitch/asshole working in every branch just waiting for someone like me to walk through the door. Actually, Old National was pretty good... being my first, it was a pleasant experience for a 15 year old.

I'm just pissy. So very much ready to be done with this following week. I wanna go home so badly its crazy.
I miss my family
I miss my friends
I miss not having responsibility

At least I've got no attachment to anyone now.
So that's a plus.

woo hoo

You know... its been an interesting journey.  This whole 'College' thing.

Being a part of a small institution like Ai Indy, its easy to see the changes take place over the course of two years.
 Some changes have been good... others... almost painfully bad.

I remember the whole process I went through to get into the school. Back when the idea of attending a 'real art school' thrilled me to no end.
  I was taking classes at Ivy Tech in Muncie... random classes. What they called their 'Computer Graphics' program was... laughable, really. A hodge podge of Design, CAD, and Photoshop... what the hell was I doing there? How was this stuff going to apply to any career?
  So... almost two years into my college life, I signed up for my first art class since high school. 'Art Connection' or something of the similar title... taught by a guy who greatly reminded me of my 5th grade teacher, Mr. Holler. Which meant that I liked him already. Any way.  As the semester went on, I became even more woeful with my position in life and it had to be rather apparent to the teacher (Woodard was his last name). During the last few weeks of class, Woodard met with each of us individually to give us our final and evaluate our projects... and we got to talking. 
  He said "Why are you wasting your time and talent on this place."
  I replied "I truly don't know..."
  To which he said "You should check out an art school... Herron or The Art Institute of Chicago... there are a handful of places out there."
  "I've always wanted to go to an art school," I said "but never could afford it, you know?"
  "Yeah, it is a little pricey... but worth it. More so than hanging around this place will ever be."

So... I took the man up on his advice and checked out the art schools near Indiana. Lo and behold, the Art Institute of Indianapolis just opened up a year after I graduated high school.  I requested information... a week later... I was interviewing for admittance.
  I met with the ever energetic Amy Locke, who sold the school better than Billy Mays ever sold Oxy-Clean ( with respect to Mays, she's just that good). I had to bring a portfolio of my drawings and designs... even an essay about how passionate I was about Art and how I wanted to better as an artist and designer.  It never left my mind how big a commitment this was and how much I was going to have to sacrifice just to go there. It was a big deal... and at one point I think I had a small breakdown as I feared I might not have gotten in.

Obviously I did...

Not even a week after classes let out at Ivy Tech, I started attending classes at Ai Indy. Driving back and forth from Muncie to Indy every few days. Over the course of two years, I've met a lot of people and made some great friends (you who you are ; ) ).  
And, what school would be like without great teachers and staff? Astu, Scott, Beth, Steve, Diane, Kurt, Jacob, John, Travis, Sarah, and a great deal of others. You guys make the school what it is. I've learned and have grown so much thanks to you guys, its almost indescribable and I try to thank and pay respect to you guys in every way that I can. You have taken things and shone them in new ways... even turned my understanding of Design and Art to a deep philosophical level... which blows my mind.

Needless to say, I really love my school.
Even though I have had to make a lot of changes in my life... they are changes for the better.

And having said all of that... I can't help but feel a little... I don't know what a proper word would be... frustrated, I guess, with how somethings have been going down recently in the last few quarters.

When I thinks of the Art Institute, I get the idea of a sense of sophistication. A step above the general high education institutions out there.  There should be a sense of pride when you tell people about the school you go to... but lately, I haven't been feeling it as strongly as in the past for some reason.

I look around the quality of some of the incoming students and I think... what?
Granted... we've come some real talent and skill at the school. But... it seems like we have more mediocrity than any thing else now...
And I'm not just talking about the work being put out, I'm also talking about the over all attitude of some people.

Like little Miss 'Imma play crappy music from my phone regardless of who I disturb' (I ran into this girl a few times...) And those who have no respect for others.... which grinds my gears more than anything else, People texting in class is probably one of my biggest pet peeves now, over throwing the classic People talking while the teacher is talking. Some don't have any idea how to use the programs... or anything having to do with a computer for that matter. Some moan and complain about the amount of work they have to do... others don't even attempt to do the work, but expect special treatment so they can earn the credit still? Others make excuses like 'I have a 45 minute drive' or 'I don't have time'... and really, having to drive back and forth Muncie, working full time jobs, taking on freelance jobs, and a great handful of other things... I have no sympathy for those excuses... I did all that and I still got my work done. It's called sacrifice. Try it out sometime.

When you have people in a 300 level Graphic Design class who don't understand even the basic basics of design or even how to use a program... there is problem.  Some of these people really need a wake up call to the not so friendly world of dealing with clients and employers. Not saying I know all that there is to know... but I at least have some first hand experiences... good and god awful. They need to realize that this isn't High School or Middle School and you just won't get an A for effort. If you are gonna shit on a project, you better have a good reason to back it up and an even better way to sell it than 'I just like it this way'.

Maybe I'm a just disillusioned.
It just seems like the school just letting anyone in now, regardless of passion, skill, talent, or commitment.
  Are people even required to present some kind of portfolio at the interview? Do they even interview anymore? What about the essay? Do people just fill out an application and wait for the acceptance letter?
Anyone who applies gets accepted! Get as many as we can! Quantity over Quality!
Are those our new mottos? It would see so...
What value does my acceptance letter have now if they just let anyone in? Hell, I might as well take it off the wall if all that it represents is an empty achievement, ya know? What value does my education have if the school is just becoming a glorified version of Muncie's Ivy Tech?

I understand that a big goal of any school or business is to get more students/customers... but damn. That shouldn't mean that the standards for acceptance should drop to ridiculous levels. I'd rather graduate with a small group of damn good designers rather than a large group of lackluster designers who were just pushed through the system because they were able to scrap by. And yeah... not to blow my own horn or anything... but I do consider myself a good designer. And I'd rather be in a class where I am having to compete with everyone rather than being in one where everyone has no clue as to what they are doing...

Calling back to the Wake Up call thought earlier... my class tonight was a great example of that.
 If a group's presentation was not good (and I'm sorry to say, some weren't)... it was called out. It was just 'get up there, say what everything is, and sit down'... it was greatly encouraging to have criticisms made of everyone's work... hell, even mine.  At that level of a class, we should know how a critique goes and what level of standards to present at...  and I think some teachers are getting tired of poor quality in presentations, craftsmanship, and work... truth be told, I don't blame them.

...anyway...
It's not just about the quality of the students...
The school itself has had its share of shady actions lately.

The most apparent event is the happening with Kurt.  I don't exactly know for sure what the truth is...  so I can't really comment on anything but rumors and hear say.
I just know that I will miss having classes with him again...

There are other things... I am trying to keep this post/rant as civil as I can... so I can really only skim the surface...
  I understand that the school has to support its most popular programs and all that... but the rest of us shouldn't have to suffer.
  Choosing 'Students of the Quarter'... that's something I've never really agreed with. Even back when they did it back in Elementary school. To me, it puts down those students who weren't nominated but feel they really grew over the quarter. Sure, the people nominated may have have done great things... but it still promotes favoritism in my eyes.  I mean... we have the boards in the halls that display student work... so in the words of Beth 'It's like buttering the butter'.

  I'd like to see more student involvement in things...
We have a great deal of talent in those two buildings... but we really don't cross communicate for anything really... I'm sure we could do something spectacular to promote the school... Hell! It'd be great for the school's AIGA group to get more members so we could actually do something cool.

I'm just annoyed...
I want my education to be worth while... but every time I encounter people who don't take their education as seriously as I do... its hard not to get discouraged, you know? It really seems like its been a bigger problem these last few quarters than the previous ones...

I dunno... thoughts?

You truly never know what you have until you lose it. We never truly see the value of something until we have a need for it. Not until after we have cast it aside... disregarding it.

This is simply human nature

If I had listened to this lesson earlier, I wonder how much could have been avoided. How much pain and sorrow could have been spared...

We left from our home 5 days ago...
The Elder was hesitant to have us along.
But it was the Little One who persisted that we needed to go just as much as she.
Even though The Sickness had plagued him no longer, he was still frail in body.
The Journey would not be easy, he knew this and remained adamant that he go.
The Little One's inner strength always brought out the good in us.
And I believe that is what convinced the Elder to allow him.
She says that she would risk safety on The Journey rather than leave any of us to fend for ourselves back home.
I believe, however, had we not joined her... she would not have been able to complete this journey on her own...

To be Continued...

Finally getting over being sick.
That sucked. By the third night, I was basically breathing fire.

I like Repo! The Genetic Opera.

Giles, from Buffy the Vampire Slayer is in it. And he is AWESOME.
I want to be the Repoman for Halloween.

Or the Shadow.

I need some people to create the costume so we can make this happen.

The weekend is almost here. Got a lot of things to bust out.

Personal Logo and development manual.
Anti Censorship magazine and illustrations.
Professional Practice comics.
Grid and Drawing for a window painting.

These next few weeks are gonna be damn busy.
Its a good thing I got sick when I did, cause I won't be able to afford after today.

We are getting ready to... MOVE FORWARD!

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watch the borders.

You what sucks when you're sick?

You can't ever go to sleep when you want to sleep.

There has been a lot of stuff on my mind as of lot... and the last thing I want to do at night is think about it all.
Rent has gone up. I won't be able to pay for it whilst working at the school.
I have a ton of things to do for school in the next two weeks... won't be able to afford it all.
Have my own projects that I want to do... but don't have time.
There is a competition at Ball State for the best painted window for Homecoming in a few weeks... big prize. If we win, that will be a great boost to the tanning salon and my morale. Plus, it'll ease my money worries for a while.

And then... there's everything with Jay and the break up.
  Needless to say. It's wearing on my mind a lot.
I go from being angry, to being sympathetic, to being angry.
The more I think about it, the more I realize there were some great times. Things that made everything alright. But, deeper, below the surface... paranoia, aggression...  the things that never went away. No matter how much I wanted to believe them to be gone.  There are other things... many others things... but that's not for a LJ public post... if any at all.

You can't expect to have a healthy relationship if you are not happy with yourself.
I was happy with myself...

Lyric Time.

Incubus - Diamonds and Coal


If it’s good to complicate then both of us are doing fine
Just keep your eyes on your part and leave me alone to mine
If it’s good to instigate we’re a fast horse, bet on us
I’m not calling you an animal
I think we just fight too much
Come on, in spite of this we’re doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal
Give us time to shine
Even diamonds start as coal
We’re both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it’s right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect
Even diamonds start out as coal
Hey now, in spite of this we’re doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal
Give us time to shine
Even diamonds start as coal
We’re incomplete and infantine
Even diamonds start as coal.
Give it time girl, the fire feels divine
The sweetest things
They burn before they shine
We think way too much
Look at us losing touch
A promise is a promise until...
Yeah, in spite of this we’re doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal
Give us time to shine
Even diamonds starts as coal.
We’re incomplete and infantile
Even diamonds start as coal

I guess this is just as good a time as any. 4:30 in the morning with nothing to keep my company besides the Who and my thoughts swirling around in my head. Nothing to distract from thinking thoughts that I don't particularly want to think about at the current moment. Yet, here I am... on one of my weekly insomnia trips. Getting all kinds of reminiscent and reflective.

I've enjoyed the time that life has allowed us to be together.
It was kind enough to give us a few fleeting moments, and we should at least be thankful for that.
Generally, Life is not that generous.

I can not say that I am not truly unhurt by this whole situation.
I can not say that I am anything less than angry with some factors. That I wasn't paranoid that the next word out of my mouth may bring it all back down, what we tried to rebuild. Who wouldn't be?

I've tried to be resentful and speak ill... but I can't come up with the words.
I've tried to place all the blame else where... but to no avail.

It's my fault as well. No one person is to blame.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you wanted me to be.
I'm sorry that I wasn't able to hold on any longer than I did.
I'm sorry that I wasn't able to be a better person for you than I was.
I'm sorry that I hurt you. Was never my intention.

I've always maintained that I was truly crazier than you.
I never got around to telling you just how deep it goes.
Looks like I never will...

I'm not proud and I am not without remorse.
I've lost something very dear to me and the damage is not minimal.

But.
It's in my nature to recover, learn, and grow. It's nothing to boast... its just fact.
Sometimes, I may recover to quickly. Learn to slow. And growth is only illusion.
Life moves on and I don't dwell on things past for to long (except when its 5 in the morning apparently)...

I harbor no bad feelings. No hate. No disillusionment.  No disappointment.
I can understand if that sentiment is not mutual.


Sorry I couldn't be a better man.

Finding it hard to care anymore.

Sometimes, I feel like I should just fade away. Leave this world to its madness and pursue the inward journey.

For every solution, there is a problem.

Things have only appeared to get better, but upon a closer look. Nothing has truly changed. Its a downward spiral and we are crossing the finish line going in the wrong direction. Full speed in reverse.

I've exhausted myself. Pouring everything I have into a bottomless well. How much further can I stretch before I tear myself in two? In the end. Is it worth it? I'd like to think so. But the thing about me is, I live in a fantasy world. I care not for this world of pain and deception and intolerance, lies, falsehoods, bigotry, and hypocrisy.

If I could, I would run. I would find the most secluded place among the peaceful and let my spirit roam.

However... running is not an option for me. To run would be to fail. And failure is not something I choose to accept.
I may be a fool, but I am not foolish.

I've done all I can think of.
Who's to say I've not done enough?

Holy Cow! Look at this inactive blog... I think it's time for an UPDATE!

So whats new?

Went on a road trip. Was fun. For the most part.
  Can't really comment on the experience anymore because of the amount of time that has passed between then and now.
  Check my photos on Facebook.

School has started up again and I have a full plate.
  Publication Design
  Corporate Communications
  Professional Practice
  Anthropology...

The second of week has just ended for me, and I'm insanely pumped for all my projects. Since... only one of them is an actual project...
Been drawing a lot.  Waiting to scan in the line work of a Red Tornado drawing... starting another today at work since there is nothing for me to do.

Yesterday was mine and Jay's sixth month of dating.  Not as monumental as the 1 year, but still rather impressive.  As first for me.

And there is an update.

So.

Check out the new icon and all it's amazing glory.  My LJ now has Turtle Power!

Anyway.

Hello Friends.
It has been a long weekend... but now it is the first week of my rather brief Summer Break.

Starting off the break strong, I ended up completing a drawing of Max Schreck's Count Orlock (from 'Nosferatu') over the weekend.
  It was very very very very uplifting to be able to sit down and draw. Something I haven't done in a long while.
You can view the drawing here... http://evilchickenpro.deviantart.com/art/Nosferatu-126837769

Next week is the long awaited Road Trip.
  I'm excited. I'm pumped. I am so ready for a vacation it's not even funny.  Aside from the occasional camping/amusement park trips in the last few years, I haven't been on a vacation in a long while. 
  Junior year of high school, if I remember right. Family trip to Florida.... so big whoop there. I am not a fan of the Sunshine State.
Not to mention, this was also the trip my entire family tried to get me to take some shots of some crazy ass liquor.

So a Road Trip will be a good thing to experience... especially when its to places that I've never been.  My camera will be quite busy.
And... its almost two weeks in a car with Jay :D

I hope to get some more drawing done over break.  Not to much of my personal design work... a couple freelance things... but nothing tremendous.  I'm feelin' pretty good about the next few weeks.

Greetings Avid Readers…

I would like to take this opportunity to address a grave issue that often goes over looked in today’s political climate.
No, it’s not the issue of terrorism. Not abortion. Not Same-Sex marriages. Not the state of the economy. No, this issue is much more troubling than anything this country is prepared to face.

My friends, I speak of the forthcoming Zombie Apocalypse. Or… for those of you who like to nitpick, I should call it the Undead Apocalypse because the term ‘zombie’ doesn’t fit the stereotypical Hollywood flesh eater. But petty titles aside, a flesh eater is still a flesh eater.

This is a topic that I often think about. The forth coming Apocalypse of the Dead is inevitable, that I have no doubt about… in fact; I’ve never been so sure of something my whole life (why yes, I did just quote Walter from ‘The Big Lebowski’ ). My only concern is whether or not I will live to see it, and hopefully, live through it. Because, let’s face it… I would be excited. Enough of this day to day monotony and the hordes of metaphorical Zombies going to and fro with senseless apathy, I am tired of it all. Let’s throw some flesh eaters into the mix and see what happens!

I know that most people would be terrified and at a loss for what to do. But those people who scoffed at the warnings will be saved by those of us who have seen the signs and planned. We are the ones who have seen every movie about the Undead, from ‘Zombie’ to all the George A. Romero films. From the laughable ‘Children of the Dead’ to the remake of ‘Dawn of the Dead’, we took mental notes and learned from the mistakes of those unfortunate. Needless to say, life has benefited greatly from the prophets of film.

You learn to look at things in a different light.
Instead of looking at a golf club for its ability to drive a ball down the fairway, you think about the maximum velocity of the swing and impact it can make on the head… then you decide that, although useful, the golf club doesn’t provide the adequate and consistent stopping power of say, a baseball bat or cricket bat.

The best weapons for defending from a flesh eater invasion are often the ones right at hand. Sure, guns are the obvious choice for truly keeping flesh eaters at bay, but who carries fully automatic rifles or SMGs on their person at all times? For those caught on the fly, blunt force trauma is the way to go.
The best standards for said weapons are…

-Long Reach-
The further away from a would be Eater of Your Flesh, the better, but do not use a weapon that is so long that it takes more energy to swing it than you can muster. At best, you want your arm length doubled.

- Hard-
Pool Noodles are long and easy to swing, but don’t deliver the skull shattering blow that is needed to fell a flesh eater. You need something that is hard enough to give a crushing blow… but again, do not sacrifice. A steel rod is both lengthy and solid enough to do the job, but at the expense of weight. This is why a baseball bat is ideal.

-Sturdy-
Golf clubs can do the job, but their puny shafts will begin to wear down after only a few swings. Wooden bats are exceptional, but can snap in two at a critical moment, leaving you with one end that is good for an impaling or two. Metal bats are very ideal… they are long enough, light enough, and hard enough.

-Replaceable-
Hey, accidents happen, live with it. But just because they happen, doesn’t mean you should give up and let your former mailman eat your liver. Like I said, the best weapons are often the ones right at hand. You get cornered in a stretch of woods? Pick up a large stick or limb and have at it. You get stranded in a butcher’s deli, grab a meat cleaver. It pays to be resourceful.

The next thing you have to look for is… adequate housing. Let’s face it… the everyday housing was not built with the forthcoming Day of Flesh Eater Reckoning in mind. So many windows on the ground level, walls and doors as thin as material board, crawl spaces, so many things to go wrong.
When on the run from the flesh eating pack of Cub Scouts and looking for your Fortress of Solitude keep in mind a few details.

- Few if any windows on the ground level.

- One exit/entrance that can be easily protected from flesh eater intruders with an emergency exit that is sturdy and only accessible from your side.

- Abundant source of power and food.

- Large area to display a visual S.O.S. in the event that the government has a plan for the threat of the pending Day the Dead Rise Again.

In my time at Walmart, I determined that in the event of the coming Flesh Eater Day, my first notion would be to head to that kind of large supermarket. It’s large and it’s got food, weapons and ammunition, one to two exits that can easily be monitored/seal. Any other doors would be an inch and a half of metal only accessible from the inside or the large garage doors on the receiving bays.

The only risk you run is the possible infestation of flesh eaters already… but with determination, a good swinging arm or aim, and a thorough sweep through the store, your Fortress of Solitude will be impenetrable. But, do not get selfish… post signs for would be survivors to follow and hold up in your Castle. Many hands make light work and the selfish asshole usually dies in the worst ways in the movie.
Who said that big businesses like Walmart can’t help out?

Yes indeed.

A Zombie Apocalypse is at hand, and I, along with countless hundreds, eagerly await news of the first attack.
We, the scoffed at and rejected, will rise from the shadows of our dark apartments and basements to hold off the flesh eaters while the grateful one timer nay Sayers run to safety. We do this because we know that a living person eating a ration of our food reserves is better than a dead person eating a portion of our thigh.

*sigh*
…
And that my friends, is the result of a insomnia induced daze where you are neither awake or asleep and your dreams become malleable like play-doh. I dreamed about being caught in the Apocalypse of Zombies while I was at Grandma’s tanning salon back in Muncie… eh, it’s not the best place to be with zombies coming for you, but we held out until Frank Zappa began to sing ‘Why Does It Hurt When I Pee?’ … which means that someone was calling and that song is my ring tone… I Rock. That Much.

I have found new resolve to start on one of my long term projects once again.

About 8 months ago, I compiled a list of the great Hollywood/Universal movie monsters. My intention with this list was to create a series of posters for each movie, demonstrating my illustrative and design skills.

This list consists of...
Dracula
Frankenstein's Monster
Bride of Frankenstein
The Wolfman
The Mummy
Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde
Creature from the Black Lagoon
Invisible Man
Nosferatu

... there may have been others on the list, but I can't recall them right away.

I actually started the CftBL poster, but due to school and freelance work and... laziness on my part. It has been sitting dormant next to my desk for a few months. But, upon viewing an AMV based off Blue Oyster Cult's 'Nosferatu' set to the great silent film of the same title (which was posted as a response to my AMV of B.O.C.'s 'Sole Survivor' found here [link] (check out my other vids as well) ) I got to thinking about this project once again.

So here I am, obtaining more reference material about each monster/character. I plan to have the Creature from the Black Lagoon finished fairly soon. All that is left to do on it would be to tighten up the pencils, add a few more elements like the titles, ink, and then colored.

However, my plan right now is to focus on developing the Nosferatu poster. I've come up with a rather strong visual element, and I don't want to lose it. Not to mention, I want to start myself off rather simply... with a black and white piece. After this one is said and finished... I'll move up the list.

Be sure to check back later for new additions to the gallery... mostly sketches and such of what direction I will be going with this project. If you have any suggestions of monsters, let me know and I'll see what I can do!

Ack..

Listen to the Who album 'Quadrophenia' and you'll have some kind of idea how I have been feeling lately.
  I actually found the album on CD at the Borders in the Hamilton mall... village.... thing... and I couldn't pass up the chance to buy it. I rather enjoy it.

Last night I had a nice long rant ready to be posted, but thankfully, I was interrupted (multiple times :P) and was able to clear my head before hitting submit.

I'm just become disheartened over the past 11 weeks.

A lot of disappointment... followed by a little more...

But right now... I feel... alright. Not spectacular... but not terrible.

I really really really really need a vacation.

This weekend, I'll be in Marion. Two of my cousins are having their open houses at the same time (their brothers, so why not?)... so that will be a nice little break before finals start.

Last weekend, Katy had a soft ball tournament at Hamilton South East... her team won every game whilst she hit two home runs.
My sister.
She rocks.  She's a brat. But she still rocks.

I get to keep working in the office over the break.
Fun.
  My design for the Graduation program is finished... and tomorrow, everyone at the Graduation will get to see MY design.  How awesome is that?

Summer.
Come faster.

So.

I came to type an entry.

But now I don't wanna.

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?: Jaimie
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? Nope
3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink? A beer... when I was really young. It tasted nasty then... and it tastes nasty now.
4. Who was your FIRST kiss? Rachel? in Kindergarten
5. What was your FIRST job? Mowing yards
6. What was your FIRST car? GMC Jimmy
7. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? I don't get texts
8. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? Jay... duh.  After the 'WTF was that?' when lightning knocked out the power for a moment
9. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs. Butts (really)
10. Who was your "FIRST"? I don't think you need to concern yourself with that
11. Your FIRST ride on an airplane? A long time ago
12. Who was your FIRST friend & do you still talk? Either Josh, Kurtis, or Kyle... and yes to all three
13. Where was your FIRST sleep over? A friend's house I guess
14. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? Myself
15. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? My parents'
16. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Go back to sleep
17. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? I don't remember... but the best one was RUSH!!
19. First piercing? None
20. FIRST foreign country you've been to? Canadia
21. FIRST movie you remember seeing in the Cinema? For some reason, I wanna say Jungle Book... at the drive in
23. What was the FIRST state/province you lived in? Indiana
24. Who was your FIRST roommate? Erik and Mykel... if they count
25. What was your FIRST bad word? Probably shit... or damn... they were never in short supply in my house
26. What was your FIRST broken bone? None... I'm unbreakable
27. When did you lose your FIRST tooth? Probably a random baby tooth
28. If you had one wish, what would it be? That it was next Monday... around 11 o'clock pm
29. What is something you would learn if you had the time? Bass guitar
30. Who do you think will be the next person to post this? Dunno

In Bloomington.

Went to the Bluebird last night. Saw the Head Banger's Ball. Had a Dirty Bird.

Had Biscuits and Gravy, an Omellete, Hash Browns, and Toast for breakfast from Cloverleaf... was good.

Did some laundry.

Played nine holes of golf. I don't suck as bad as I did 10 years ago. That's not sayin' much.

I don't like the Land of the Lost previews. It uses the Who's 'Won't Get Fooled Again'... because I guess it fits?

Decided to let the logo situation be as it is... it's still my work, regardless what anyone says. In the off chance the company takes off like crazy, it'll be exposure for me.

I'm kinda tired.

Kurtis and a couple other guys are planning on drinking tonight... guess what I'll be doing.

I want these next two weeks to fly by.

Does anyone else find sports commentators really annoying? Especially when all they do is rave about one dude for ten minutes? *cough cough Kobe Bryant cough cough* Professional Basketball is ridiculous anyway... Give me college ball any day.

I forgot that Monday is Memorial Day... that means no school! Yay!  That also means... no work. No yay.

Miss Jay. Three weeks are gonna drag on.
All there is to say at the particular moment.

Excited for summer. I think it will be very very fun.

I am the waffle.

65 QuestionsShare

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Usually my hair or face

2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Dark Blue

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Of course!

4. Do you plan outfits? I go as far as deciding what over shirt I want to wear...

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Apathetic...

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red? The Ai Indy logo

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? Are you my shrink?

8. Did you meet anybody new today? No and I don't want to either

9. What are you craving right now? Not being at school...

10. Do you floss? Not all that often

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? Lettuce?

12. Are you emotional? I have Bizarre and Angry for emotions

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000? I've never been that bored

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? Lick

15. Do you like your hair? It's okay.

16. Do you like yourself? no comment at the moment

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? If he paid, why the hell not?

18. What are you listening to right now? people

19. Are your parents strict? If they were, they'd be kinda hypocritical

20. Would you go sky diving? I doubt it

21. Do you like cottage cheese? I love cottage cheese

22. Have you ever met a celebrity? Geoff Johns (comic book writer) even got his autograph... my mom has met George Clooney

23. Do you rent movies often? Not really.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in? I guess? there are multiple people in here... but none of them are shiny... so they aren't moronic vampires

25. How many countries have you visited? Two

26. Have you made a prank phone call? Back in middle school

27. Ever been on a train? Yep

28. Brown or white eggs? What's the difference?

29. Do you have a cell-phone? Yeah...

30. Do you use chap stick? When there is a need

31. Do you own a gun? The strongest gun I own is a pump action BB gun... and that beats out a rubber band gun.

32. Can you use chop sticks? Yep

33. Who are you going to be with tonight? Nobody

34. Are you too forgiving? Hell, if anything, I'm too unforgiving.

35. Ever been in love? Yes, I think I can safely say that

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow? I dunno... enjoying summer?

37. Ever have cream puffs? yes

38. Last time you cried? Almost did last night... but hey, who can blame me?

39. What was the last question you asked? What the fuck?

40. Favorite time of the year? Dead of Winter

41. Do you have any tattoos? Nope

42. Are you sarcastic? No...

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Yep

44. Ever walked into a wall? Yep

45. Favorite color? Silver

46. Have you ever slapped someone? Slapped, punched... sure

47. Is your hair curly? Nope, straight

48. What was the last CD you bought? I don't really remember... probably something by The Who

49. Do looks matter? Depends on what we are talking about

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater? No

51. Is your phone bill sky high? The reverse actually

52. Do you like your life right now? Once I get back my sure footing, I will...

53. Do you sleep with the TV on? I usually fall asleep to music

54. Can you handle the truth? Eventually, I can

55. Do you have good vision? No...

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? I hate one person... and I dislike a great deal of people

57. How often do you talk on the phone? Not very...

58. The last person you held hands with? Jay

59. What are you wearing? Clothes

60. What is your favorite animal? Turtles and Bears of course

61. Where was your default picture taken? My LJ picture was taken at the Wal-Mart in Columbus, IN

62. Can you hula hoop? Yep, I got the motion

63. Do you have a job? I do indeed... and I enjoy it

64. What was the most recent thing you bought? Soon to be a Soda

65. Have you ever crawled through a window? Of course

OKAY!  I'm going to do this...  I am going to sit here and write this entry even if it kills me!

...well, it may not get that extreme... but I will write anyway. Life has been extremely busy these past few weeks...

So.

Job.  It's been keeping me rather busy. Designing posters... hanging posters... stemming flow of student traffic. 
  This has probably been one of the most rewarding of my steady jobs thus far.  And why wouldn't it be? I am getting paid to basically do what I enjoy doing... and I get to keep the results! :P
  There are some things that need to ironed out of course... there hasn't been an student worker for Student Affairs.... and this is a new office... so I lack things like... an efficient computer to do my design work on... and its kinda bland in here at the moment, but the word on the street is that a PC is on its way as well as some wall decor.
  Everyone is really nice and supportive of my work... and I enjoy that.

Currently, my freelance work is picking back of with the return of my previous client as well as the possible addition of a window painting job within the next day or two (get to go meet with them today after work).

On top of that, the internship is going.... and that's all I can say at the moment....

School is school. I'm taking any Graphic Design classes this course... trying to get the electives and generals out of the way whilst taking a moment to let my design sense collect itself from last quarter.  Not to mention... I feel as though I have been in a funk as of late... which isn't cool.

I think its just stress... stress about having enough money to support myself again... raising money for the road trip this summer... other things of the personal and family matters.   Next week, I have four projects due... one is a midterm Web Scripting project (which I don't know how to even begin to code...), one is an audio group project, one is a computer paint project I have to completely redo, and another is a 2-3 page letter to a polat two piece marketing presentation on two different people (which is completely stupid... a 16x20 presentation board per person... wtf am I supposed to put on it? and this is a Research and Technical Writing class... not Speech).  Shit... no wonder I am kinda freakin' out... I hardly have enough time to take care of all this crap. Now... I'm freakin'... shit fuck and damn.
How'd I go from having extraordinary amounts of time to having hardly any time at all?  Life is ridiculous sometimes.

Well... this is a decent sized post so far.
I apologize for the lack of updating as of recent... but, its not like I didn't have a few good excuses.

This weekend is Mother's Day, so to all the mothers out there... HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.
Unfortunately, I won't be able to spend it with mine... because I'll be in Urbana with Jay..

Let's see here... what else?
Rush rocks... so does the Who...

Batman sucks.
Green Arrow is the best.

Cabin Fever is an awesome movie...

I haven't been to Panera in almost a month...

Hi, my name is... Kory

My eyes are... Brown/Green/Gray

My status is... as dynamic as a broken stapler

I want to have kids... for breakfast

I wish I was better at... being a student...

Currently I am... at work

I Love... Music and my girl.

Never in my life have I been to... Russia

My favorite animal is... Turtle!

My favorite color(s) is...  Silver, Black, and Green

My biggest pet peeve is... Rudeness

Right now, I am listening to... Rush and two guys talking about Football

If you’re gonna talk smack about me... you better hope it's a good day

When I'm nervous... I stay quiet

The last song I listened to was... 'The Way The Wind Blows' by Rush from Snakes and Arrows

If you were to get married today your maid of honor/best man would be... I'd have a few (Jordan, Josh, Steven, Joe, Kyle, Kurtis, Scott, Ryan, James)

My hair is... Dark Brown

When I was 4... it was 1990

My mom... is crazy and I love her.

My dad... is in Muncie, doing his thing.

Last Christmas... was enjoyable, as usual.

I should be... doing nothing else because I have not the materials to do anything....

When I look down... I see my desk and my planner that has pricing quotes...

The happiest recent event was... Last Saturday... making steak burritos

My current annoyance right now is... Money and school work.

There's this girl I know and... I likes her.

If you visited the place I'm from... you'd expect there to be a punch line...

Most recent thing I've bought myself was... food.

Most recent thing someone else bought me was... ticket to see Wolverine

If I was an animal I'd be... a bear

Yesterday I was... unproductive despite my best efforts

Last night I was... in class...

Tomorrow I am... gonna be in class

Tonight I am... working on a paper and not sleeping...

My favorite piece of jewelry is... my Bracelet-That-Is-Really-A-Necklace

I am looking forward to... not right now.

The one that knows the most about me is... I dunno... most people would be wrong.

If I could tell my friends one thing it would be... hmmm, I can't tell you.

If my woman/man were to bring me flowers I would want them to be... fake... and made out of chocolate.  Cause I don't really care for flowers

So. Fun fact.

This May marks the 25th anniversary of the greatest crime fighting team the world has ever known.
No, not the Fantastic Four.
Not the Avengers.
And not the Justice League or the Justice Society.

I'm talking about the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. The coolest quartet of bad assery that every normal kid growing up wanted to be.

With this great achievement comes even greater news my friends. In the year 2011, there will be another live action TMNT movie. LIVE ACTION TMNT MOVIE!  This development greatly pleases me as a life long fan of the Turtles.  Supposedly, from co-creator and executive producer Peter Laird, the film will be based on the origin of the Turtles and Master Splinter and will greatly resemble the original run of the comics. Which is amazing news...

The first live action TMNT movie was... very good for what they could do at the beginning of the 90's. It has some great action and a solid story line for the concept of the movie. The overall mood of the movie fits fairly closely with the first run of the comics... dark, grimy, and tense with bits of humor thrown in here and there. 
  I really freakin' love that movie.  Besides 'Beetlejuice' and 'Aladdin' and 'All Dogs Go to Heaven', Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles was one of the most watched movies on my childhood.

The second movie was very enjoyable as well, but the whole feel is that of the cartoon. Its clean and has more humor to it with the return of the Shredder.  To bad they didn't bring back the same actress to play April O'Neil, and no Casey Jones for that matter, but its a strong movie none the less.

The third movie... doesn't exist.  It has feel from one of the video games where they all go back in time.... but it makes a poorly made movie.  Poorly made movie that makes me cringe... the live action show was better.  A plus towards the movie is that it has Casey Jones... but he's wasted. (Not literally, ofcourse.)

The newer CG movie was... awesome to say the least. For the fact that you are blending new and old concepts into a new medium. Great action that definetly couldn't be pulled off in 1990 with puppets and people in suits.  The tension between Leonardo and Rapheal is rich and finally comes to frutation in a duel... in the rain (psst IT LOOKS AMAZING!). Ofcourse, neither one really wins, because no one turtle is better than the other... it's their individual abilities that makes their team so freaking awesome. Sure, Raph is the strongest and most brutal out of the four, but he becomes unfocused to easily. Leo doesn't often take uncalucated risks or make uninformed decisions, which may lead the team to miss a chance they could have taken advantage of, but... he is the leader and the strongest martial artist out of them all.  Don, ofocourse, is the genius... but is more of a pacifist.  Mikey is the fastest and most nimble... but... come on. He's the Party Dude.

Thats great news... it makes me ever so happy.

That and the new Ghostbusters movie due out in a few years as well.

AND it's Jay and I's three month... its a awkward feeling. But I like it.